Wednesday, April 27, 2011

in love

i'm in love. with a little 7 month old baby. who is our son. today i finally got the email from our adoption agency saying that our pictures and video were ready. i immediately called brian and told him "go to AAC and get the pictures of my baby!" he said, "don't you mean OUR baby?" well of course. :)

i got the email at about 2pm and had already made plans to go for a 2.5 hour hike with my friend Jeanne. brian said there was no way he was going to wait for me to look at the pictures. that's ok, i suppose, as i didn't wait for him to look at our referral pictures. i totally get it.

so as Jeanne and i were walking toward Mt. Sanitas to begin our hike, i called brian to see if he had looked yet. he had. he informed me that in the video the baby looked "engaged" and was responding well to the people around him. he said they showed him the picture of brian and me and that the baby held it and stared at it and even tried to kiss it. how SWEET! he said it looks like he had gained weight (yay) and had more hair (yay again.) i asked him if the baby was wearing pink... and he replied that, yes, he was wearing pink pants... sigh! : )

brian had plans to meet some friends at the climbing gym at 6pm and i was contemplating joining them. i told brian to bring the computer with him so that i wouldn't have to wait even longer to see the updated pics of our son.

so at 6pm brian met me in the parking lot and sat with me in the car while i scrolled through the pictures and then watched the 7 minute video. it was a surreal moment. the first couple of pictures were from the side... when i saw the first head on photo, my heart jumped. he is so darn cute. his eyes are HUGE. his lips are round. and yes, he was wearing pink pants.

brian seemed really excited to share this moment with me. and he was right, the baby was very interested in our pictures. tears formed in my eyes when i saw him grab the pictures and hold them close. and i downright started crying when i heard his korean foster mom say over and over this is your umma and appa (mom and dad). i didn't notice her saying that until maybe the fourth time i watched the video. yes, i have to admit i've already lost count of how many times i watched it. it seems like each time i watch, i notice more things. i won't bore you with the details of all of my observations now... i'll save that for my next post!

Monday, April 25, 2011

so excited!

i found out tonight that our agency was indeed able to get pictures of our little guy! and video! they are in the process of downloading everything to DVD's and we will hopefully have them by the end of the week. i'm so excited!!!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

easter wrap up

today ended up being a great day. brian and i woke up early and made 4 loaves of banana bread. nina came over and the three of us went to church. when we got back michelle came over and we feasted on easter brunch. my breakfast casserole was mighty delicious if i do say so for myself. brian entertained us by putting a peep in the microwave and showing us how it inflates.

nina had to leave fairly early, but michelle taught brian and me how to play spaids... and let's just say that i'm a natural. : ) brian was cracking me up, because he was totally losing the ENTIRE time. later in the afternoon, michelle and i went to macintosh lake and walked the 3.5 mile trail around the lake. we had a nice talk and enjoyed being outside and getting some exercise. we came back home and ate the rest of the casserole and some chocolates (so much for the calories we burned on our walk).

after michelle left, i spent some time working on my photo album for our ethiopia photos. yesterday i had over 200 printed. it took me several hours to get them organized and placed in the photo album. the next step will be to write notes next to each photo. i would like to have made a nice scrapbook of the trip, but that would probably take me years considering i still haven't finished my wedding scrapbook (and we're going on 10 years of marriage.)

so i got all the photos in the album along with a few of our house and of baby InChan. i will share these with my family when i go home in 9 days. there is room for 6 more pictures in the album and i am HOPING that we will receive some updated pictures of the baby this week!

Oh, Glorious Day!

i awoke this morning with the realization that next year at this time i will more than likely have a little son who will be opening his easter basket. next year at this time he will be 19 months old.

i remember all the Easter baskets that my mom lovingly made for my sister and me through the years. she always had a way of making Easter fun and exciting. i remember the awesome scavenger hunts through the house and the excitement of finding our cabbage catch kids in her closet and our michael jackson record in the bathtub. if i can be even half as fun, thoughtful, creative and attentive as my mom was and is, i will be a great momma. : )

this year my family is celebrating the holiday with our newest addition, Rocco. i think he is 12 days old now. i will upload pictures soon of his adorableness, i promise. even though i haven't met him yet, i miss him along with my sweetest nephew Lucca, my sis, mom, dad and grandmas. happily i will be flying to ohio for a visit in 9 days.

today i will be spending the day with brian and with my girlfriends nina and michelle. we will going to 9:30 church service and then coming back to our house for a brunch. if the weather holds out we plan to take a hike in lyons.

while the holidays are special whether we spend them with family or friends, i want to make certain that i don't lose sight of the meaning behind the holiday. He is Risen. He's alive. He died so that my sins are forgiven and I can have ETERNAL life with Him.
This you tube music video says it better than i can. check it out and be blessed!



Thursday, April 21, 2011

more from ethiopia


Day 8

I woke up early. It was still dark. I don’t know how anyone could sleep through the loud prayer (muslim I think) blaring through the speakers throughout the city. As I look out the windows, it is now starting to get light out and I see a lot of people walking down the road. The women have scarves over the heads. I’m assuming they are muslim, but I’m not sure because many ethiopian women wear them regardless of religion, and I believe the orthodox Christians wear them as well.

Our side of the street is very nice, but across the street is dirt, trash, metal shelters and sheep. I am going to get situated and get a shower, so that we can meet Hailey and Yemomu at 8am to begin walking to church. At 4pm we are supposed to meet Tom and Sally and another guy for dinner. After that we are to meet with the team of 30 from America who will be distributing shoes for the next 2 days. We are going to be orienting them to the process. Hopefully between church and dinner, we will have time to visit an orphanage. I really wish Brian would want to adopt a baby from here. Or I wish I wouldn’t want to as much as I do.

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We arrived at church a little late, but still in time to participate in some of the worship music. It was enjoyable and cool to see Ethiopians worshipping in English. Later when we were walking back from church we walked past a church worshiping in Amharic and it was awesome! You could hear the singing down the road and it was beckoning to come in. I peeked in through the gates and I can’t describe how awesome it was to hear the powerful singing to God in another language at such a volume. I can’t even imagine being inside enveloped in that. I’m hoping that next Sunday we will be able to attend at least the Amharic worship service. But anyways, the service was good. It was about having faith and knowing that God is faithful.

The group of us (Brian, Nick, Kelly, Haily, Yemamu and I had lunch at our guesthouse restaurant and then took several taxis to get to the orphanage. Our goal was to assess the building layout and incorporate the large first floor room into a playroom. We thought we could make bookshelves and buy baskets to put on the shelves. This could be a place where the kids could have books and toys. We also discussed creating soft floor pads, a rug, and/or some beanbag chairs.

As we were trying to envision the space, one of the workers said that there was already a “playroom” upstairs. We asked them to show it to us. We walked upstairs, through the toddler room, through 2 infant rooms (which smelled horrible) and were shown the “playroom” which was a balcony off of the infant room. Not only was there not a single toy, but the floor is concrete and the metal railing looked less than safe. Not to mention that there were no kids at all using this playroom. On the positive side, the fresh air out there is amazing; there is a breeze; and the view of the trees and the street is very refreshing compared to the cramped infant room filled with cribs, odors and crying babies.

While our initial goal was to focus on the playroom situation, we could not ignore the major needs occurring inside the infant room. Almost all of the babies were crying. It reeked of diarrhea. The vast majority of the kids were wet. Their bottles were next to them as they were lying on their backs. Some were feeding themselves, some were unable to do so. I walked around talking to several babies as they lied in their cribs. Oftentimes that simple interaction helps to calm them down.

I picked up one baby who was coughing, and I thought that getting her upright might help with her coughing. I held her in my left arm while using my right hand to interact with kids in their cribs. They would pull themselves into a standing position to be closer to us as we stood next to their cribs. One little one grasped my hand and just kept shaking it. Over and over again. I wished I could hold two babies at the same time, but I’m not strong enough. My left arm was getting tired and I tried to put the little girl back in her crib, but each time I did she began to wail.

Her little crib mate was tiny. She looked like a newborn, but I could tell she was older by the way she was smiling at me and she had a couple of teeth. She was very malnourished.

I picked up another little one. I thought he was a boy. I was getting too overwhelmed in the baby room, so I took him outside onto the balcony “playroom.” It felt wonderful to be outside and I imagine he liked the change. I brought his bottle so that I could feed him while we were out there. After awhile he started making some babbling noises which made me feel like he was a real baby, opposed to one of a bunch of orphan babies, if that makes sense at all. (side note: over the next few days I had regular interaction with this little sweetie. Turns out “he” is a she. I asked if she was available for adoption, as I was falling in love, however, she is in the process of being adopted by an Ethiopian woman who lives in America. So her future is good! In fact, I later found out that the majority of the infants here are also in the process of being adopted. If you are an Ethiopian resident, it only costs 200 dollars to adopt. Much easier than the 25,000 plus dollars it costs us Americans!)

The playroom is still a major goal of ours, but we now realize that we really need to focus on some basic essentials including: diaper changing, sheet changing, cleaning faces and noses, feeding kids upright etc. It is very overwhelming and seems like it might be an almost hopeless situation. Kelly did all of this training when she was here in 2009 and now there is a whole new group of caregivers who seem to either not know anything or have a lack of motivation. Maybe they are just overwhelmed too. (side note: we went back often after that and the caregivers appeared much more motivated. We think that since this was a weekend, there was even less staff than usual.)

Tom picked us up at the orphanage and dropped off some of the donation stuff that we brought over from the states. The most needed thing that we have are awesome waterproof reusable diapers. That will be the first thing that we try to implement tomorrow.

Tom drove us to the Ethiopian guesthouse to meet the owners for dinner. We were served pizza, French fries and really delicious strawberry smoothies. We toured the guesthomes and met some local boys on the street who enjoyed practicing their English with us. These kids are so smart. Several of them speak three languages. They asked me how many languages I speak… After that we were served coffee as we discussed the shoe distribution with the 30 team members of Visiting Orphans.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

The significance of April 13th, 2011

Our baby InChan turned 7 months today! We still don't have a first name picked out for him. We are trying decide between three options. There is really no hurry since we won't even get to meet him for such a looong time : ( but it will be nice to refer to him as one name (opposed to the several we keep trying out!)

Other exciting news... my sister is having her second baby tomorrow. At 7am Ohio time, little Rocco Ledford will join the world. I am sad that I won't be there tomorrow, but I will get to meet him in just a few short weeks. And then I will get to see the other little love of my life... my first nephew Lucca.

Sunday, April 10, 2011

exciting news!


While I prefer for things to be in chronological order, I will be switching up my blog a bit and posting on some current news that is occurring in our lives.

Ready... Set... We have a SON!!!!!

It's true. We have a beautiful baby boy who is currently residing in Seoul, South Korea. (I thought it was appropriate to change the title of my blog to reflect this!)

We received his referral (photos and medical/social history) on tuesday april 5th and signed our acceptance papers on april 8th. He will turn 7 months old in a few days. Did I mention that he is adorable?!?!?!?

If anyone wants to see his photo, just send me an email (apappano@hotmail.com) and I can send it to you. I can't post his photo on my blog until I figure out how to make the blog private.

As each day passes, I am growing more connected to his little picture and find myself longing more and more to bring him home. The wait to bring him home is going to feel like forever.

***By the way the photo above is of some concrete in our back yard that Brian designed to represet our new family! My husband is too cute.